Tuesday, February 15, 2011
"Trust is like the Golden Rule."
Yeah. I suppose you'll see this soon, I hope you do. I ain't gonna say who you are, but I guess, you will know.
What's going on? I really don't know. Everything's changing so quickly. Everybody's being emotional, except me perhaps. Everyone is taking turns to get into the "emo" kind of mood. Why? Are so many bad shits happening? Well, actually, yes. After yesterday, I've learnt. MANY things are happening. But, it seems like I've been kept in the dark, I'm slow in learning about things happening around me, things happening to my closest friends. How come? I don't expect you to tell me immediately, neither do I expect you to tell me if you really don't wanna tell anyone. But, you told someone, and it makes me feel and think, I'm not trustworthy, I'm not a good friend.
I'm not trying to be dramatic here, whatsoever. I'm stating facts. I ask, because I care. I care, because I wanna help. I help, because I don't wanna see you cry. Because when you cry, if you didn't know, it hurts us too. Perhaps you think I wouldn't understand, perhaps you think such things wouldn't happen to me. You don't tell me, of course I don't understand! You think I don't worry, but in fact, you're making me worry more. I don't know about the other people, I wouldn't speak for them yet.
You said you cried because you were stressed. Haven't I told you, "I am your pillar whenever you need one." And no, I don't mean it in any other way. But seriously, friends be there for each other, well, true friends does. True friends listens to what one another has to say, understand it. It's not that you don't fit in a group of which you don't talk to. It's just that, you don't tell some of us stuff, when we're really wanting to help. No, don't get our intentions wrongly. We're not trying to be busybodies and just wanna know what happened, or what is happening. What we really want to do is to, HELP. Yeah, it's that simple!
I have NEVER, thought that you were talking ill about us. Because I know, you ain't this sort, and I still have that trust in you. Nobody blamed you for not having lunch with us. We even understood and thought you just needed to talk to her. "I thought no one will ever understand me." Look, that's a killer, okay? Thanks, you just stabbed me with your words. I'm utterly disappointed. I'm utterly shocked, I couldn't gain your trust, that's the bottom line of everything. You make me feel like I'm really a lousy friend. You make me feel like you're avoiding some stuff from me. You made me feel like you couldn't trust me. Okay, I respect it, it's alright. I got that. I can't blame you, because you are going through many things right now. But the trust, I don't see any reason for that. Why? Why can't you tell us? You think we wouldn't understand? Sorry, you're wrong.
Okay fine, let's say you DO trust me. Okay, thanks. But aren't cliques for you, always? Aren't cliques supposed to be understanding, with each other at least. What did we do? What did we do that didn't make you feel like telling us? I just don't get it. We've never spread anything about you, why would we?! I'm sorry, we've never got the chance to. And even if we did, we wouldn't.
I'm feeling so lousy.
There's nothing I can do.
I'm always in the dark.
I had no intentions, I just wanted to help...
And, I've never blamed you, I wouldn't.
Just to let you know, the same old phrase, "I'm your pillar whenever you need one."
