I didn't choose who I wanted to be.

I don't like it when..

I take things personally.
I cry in front of my friends.
Feel so lousy about myself because of certain reasons.
Etc, etc.

I don't like who I am right now, and I really mean it. I'm crying almost everyday. I'm taking things too personally. I have a heart that's made of glass. I have feelings which are totally sensitive about basically everything.

But honestly, it's not like I want it. I cannot choose who I want to be. If I could, I'd definitely be a much happier person. I don't like whom I am either. What can I do? Nothing's going to change my character, I'm serious.

However, one thing I can control. The way I take words. I don't have to take it personally. I could turn a deaf ear. But no, I didn't. I just had to show how weak I was. I was already tearing when the words entered my ears. How can I change? Easier said than done.

I don't want the current me. Really. I need my friends. The way you guys all treated me today. I cried because I was sad, I cried because I was touched. When you guys saw me step into school, I loved the way you all reacted. You guys walked up to me, and just hugged me. I know you guys saw me cry too many times. I didn't even get this upset when I broke up.

Thank you:
Adeline, Angela, Dayna, Dodges, Eunice, Fong Xin, Jiawei, Johanna, Nicole, Ronnie, Weiliang. And Kaijie. Thank you for being by my side whenever I need you guys. I just can't thank you enough. (:

Kaijie:
I know you may not see this, but I'm still writing it, it's the thought that counts. Anyway, I know we had our misunderstandings with each other. I know there was this little while when we hated each other. But, it isn't there anymore, I promise. Today, when you walked up to me and grabbed my shoulders, and told me that it was alright, I really was ashamed, I didn't dare to look at you. I just want to say, thank you and sorry.

I don't want to carry on with these stuff. Enough is enough.

Cameron Chen Jin,
♥You're perfect in my eyes.
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I'm not perfect, so are you. So don't judge me.

Because there'll always be a beautiful rainbow after every storm. Time heals everything.


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