What if it happens again? ):

I am scared. I am shaking in fear. I am in an emo mood. I don't know why, but i'm afraid of losing. What can overcome this fear? I don't want history to repeat itself. I don't want things to go the way like it used to. What if it does? What if i get rejected? How? I don't know. I don't want to face that sort of reality once again. I'm afraid. I really like you, and i hope you believe me. The first 5 strawhearts i made, were all given to you. I hope you like it, although it's very screwed. I don't want to lose. Most importantly, i don't want to lose you. If things happen this way once again, i'm better off dead. I don't know but, i'm having temptations to cut myself right now, but i know i shouldn't. Forget it, it's predestined. My life is fated to be f***ed. -.- Life sucks anyway. Yeah, i've got to face the facts, i have a miserable life.