Let's last forever.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Time for a break.

School for 2010 zoomed past. Happy times, bad times, they were all there. Friends, quarrels, breakups, they were there too. But, it was them, that made me strong, that made me know what pain is, what heartbroken meant. Yeah, good times, bad times. This is life. Let's just say, 2010 school life was awesome, yet not so awesome; fun, yet not so fun; memorable, yet some things i just want to forget. I've been through so many things in GM. I loved every single bit of it. I've got no regrets coming into this school. I just, loved it. So many friends, that stood by my side, listened to every single thing that i had to rant. Yeah, they are true friends. However, there were conflicts among some of us too. Hopefully, everything would work out. Now that a year of school has past, it's time to settle down. Maybe i should really reflect. What has been wrong, what i should continue. Sit down and think for a moment, am i doing the right thing? Maybe i'm not, because, it doesn't seem like it. I did smile a lot, but many tears rolled down for stupid reasons, mostly because of friends. Sometimes i really think í'm silly, what for? Anyway, everything worked out in the end. It ended memorably, and we're still going to be as a whole, Faith2-2. I've got to kick some ass, learn my lesson. Words don't speak, action does. Give me a chance, and i'll prove it to you. 2010, no words can describe it.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I don't know what to do.

I just hurts so much, to see you in this state.

What should i do? I don't know. Should i sacrifice? Should i, let go? I don't want to see you so hurt. I don't want you to feel unhappy about anything whatsoever. I know it's very difficult for you, i know. I know you want to be a student councillor. You don't want bad records. I love you, and seeing you happy is definitely the most important thing. But, i can't bear to let go. It's not enough! What should i do? Don't quit? Or just let go. I don't know. You say you never thought of breaking up, i appreciate it. But, for the betterment of yourself, should you? Or maybe when you're officially a student councillor, then we take it from there. What should you, or i, choose? I don't know. I got so worried for you. I fell sick. Slept and woke up perfectly fine. But the first thing that came into my mind was you. How were you feeling? What was going through your mind? I didn't know. I feel like a lousy boyfriend, seriously. Not being able to know how you feel. Sorry, that i'm a failure. But you still love me with all your heart, thanks. This road may be tough, but let's find a way out. Okay? That's all. Loveyou.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Take my hand.

Take my hand, and i'll walk with you, i promise okay? Loveyou.

11 beautiful days together. However, i honestly feel, nothing is coming out of it. I really want to hold your hand, i really want to hug you. I really want us to act like a couple. Yeah, i know, many things are limited. In school, teachers are around. Through text, impossible, because your mum reads them. Through phone, you don't like it. Hmm. I really want all of this to come true. Will you fufil my wish? I don't know. I really want to take the initiative and break the ice. But, but, i can't bring myself to. Now i know how hard it is. However, i know it's possible. I know you love me. Do you? Well, i do. Sometimes it's so hard to say what i want to. I don't dare to say it in front of you, it's shocking but i'm shy. Through text, it's basically impossible. How do i bring this up? Could you tell me? Because i really want to take the initiative. It isn't possible if you take the initiative right? I'm the guy. I should be taking the first step. I hope my wish comes true. I hope the ice would crack. Hey, i love you. Let's last forever.

Disgusting. HAHA, I'M NOT JEALOUS YOU IPHONE.

DISGUSTING IPHONE 5. WITH STYLUS. EEEEEEEEE. I RATHER 4 (: AND I'M NOT JEALOUS.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

If you're jealous, just say it.

You suck ttvm. /sigh. Why want to talk behind people's back when you can say it right in front of my face? I seriously pity you. If you're jealous, say it. Don't have to pray so hard for something to happen to us. Anyway, i seriously don't know what's wrong. Seriously make me think that you're.. Forget it laa -.- Tsk. Just, grow up seriously.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Tell me everything is alright.

Will it be? I hope it would. I think i'm just thinking too much. Or maybe because you've never said I love you to me before. 1 week and 3 days, i want it to last forever. I hope i'm alright, I hope we're alright. Am I? Are we? I don't know. Why don't you be the one sitting by my side and say" Baby everything's alright. " I'll fly to cloud nine if that's the case. I love you..

Sunshine after Rain.

I'm glad i saw light, I'm glad i found you.

Yes, it's all over. Yes, it's all over. I'm glad it's a sunshine after rain. I'm glad that doomsweek has come to an end. I'm glad, it's all over. Awesome, isn't it? I better play my ass off right now :D I'm going to be a happy boy boy ^^ hahaha. Holidays are coming, won't be able to see bbg that often anymore ): Sad case. Worse thing is, she's going to Malaysia for a week. Die seriously die ): No texting some more. Woah, i'm better off dead. But wait, i'm supposed to be a happy boy :D Might be going out with Amanda, Nelson and Jiahui and a few others this coming Thursday/Friday. Still not so sure yet. But one thing's for shure, i ain't watching Child's Eye 3D. I seriously cannot tahan -.- Come out, sumpa kena headache. I ain't going to watch. I rather go shop alone at Bugis or Iluma than to watch. HOHOHO. I wait for bbg come back then go watch w her non 3D one also can (: (: (: YAY. Urgh, i seriously want to watch GLEE . Don't stop believing ! :D Hahaha. Yeahhh, despo seriously. Hmm. Gotten back English results. Not too bad, B3. 66/100. Oral pulled me up a lot. Highest in class (: 23/28. Awesome ttvm. Hahaha. Okay i'm done blogging :D BYEE.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Should I even bother?

Why should I care about school?

School. What is school? School is only a place where i make friends. School is a place where I socialize. But, is school a place where I learn? Where I gain knowledge? I really don't know. My results, they are as good as bullshit. What's the point of taking the exam? When all I did was getting a C? You're kidding me, right? What's the point of paying school fees? Might as well save this money on other stuff that are more worth it. 5C, 1B, 2A, 1F. Wtfreak? Yeah, I improved on my A, but they aren't A1. Home Econs, 73. Chinese, 74. Yeah yeah. My Chinese, fcuk off seriously. Knn, i'm expected to get 80 for SA2, or at least a 69 to get an A1 for total. And in the end, it came out as a 67. What is this? Seriously, i'm just wasting my time here. I go to school to see my friends and her, that's it, right? I don't see any use in studying. All i know is that i'm wasting my time. Perhaps studying isn't as important as i thought it was, but i really don't want to give up. What should i do?

English- B so far. (Oral yet to announced.)
Chinese- A2- 74.
Maths- C5- 58.
Science- C5- 59.
History- F9- 35.
Geography- C6- 50.
Literature- C5- 55 (Fcuk off seriously -'-)
Home econs- A2- 73.
Art- C6- 54. (Honestly, I fail i also will laugh -.-)

Yeah. So how is this good? My parents give so much, and yet they get this in return. I know, i'm studying for myself, not them. But it hurts so much to have seen the money gone to waste. Someone please tell me, what should I do?

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Oh, i keep my fingers crossed.

Oh hell yes. I hope this isn't real. Please tell me i thought right ): I'm keeping my fingers crossed for so many things. Results, her. Just tell me what they say isn't true. So many things are going through my mind right now. Wild imaginations. Things that i wouldn't want it to happen.

Results.

Hell yes i'm scared. Knowing that i've already failed History, makes me worry more. Well, but i improved my History, so i guess it's alright. I hope and pray that my results good, and that i get top 100 for the end of year. I don't know. Term 3 was an awesome term for me, academic wise. I earned myself a teevee. It's currently sitting in my room, just got fixed up. I'm happy about it. Hopefully i earn a camera too? That'll just be awesome. Please, oh please.

HER.

Oh gosh, not too quick please? It's only 181010 today. Rumours, don't come too fast. Please tell me you love me. Please tell me what they said isn't true. Even if it was, tell me you love me. You not loving me, would be the last thing i would ever want to hear. I really look forward to Friday. One week, please let it come true. I don't want another short term relationship. I see no meaning in it. I love you, i really do. I was so happy when you said yes. I want you to call me your bee forever. I love the hell of you and i really can't bear to lose you. Not now, not ever. I love you ttvm. Don't disappoint me, please. I don't want to lose you.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Simply loved, *insert hearts*

I would say i love you more often.

Hello (: Today is a damn awesome day. Went to Cheryl's house together with Kirti, Vivian, James, Nelson, WeiJing, DarrenGoh, Chaoxian and Andrew, Fun ttvm. How i wish i could turn back the clock mancxz. Hmm, but i'm seriously lazy to blog about it. Maybe tomorrow? I'm seriously losing interest to blog :/ Hopefully i'll blog more often next time :D Results are on Monday, i'm freaking scared. :O I hope and pray i did well, which, i think i didn't? Oh well, whatever. Webcam-ing with Jiahui & Amanda now. They are like lesbo-ing with each other. x.x Looks like letting me watch porn, just not nude, hahaha! Okays enough. Hmm. Okays, nothing liao. Today was just awesome. Bye readers~

Cookies:

1 day, 5 hours and 3 minutes together. Awesome. Time now is currently, 1112. Oh shucks, i missed 1111. Anyway, doesn't matter (: I have you by my side now. Although some things are restricted, but i hope this doesn't affect anything. I love you okay. Seems like you've yet to say it to me once, laughs. Oh well, it's alright. As long as i know it. :D Looking forward to monday. I love you.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

I flew to cloud nine.

Hey (: No pictures today. Sorraye. Apology accepted? Laughs~. Today, is just the best day of my life. Firstly, exams are over. How awesome can it get? :D Secondly, went out with Kirti, Cheryl, Vanessa, James, Andrew and Nelson. All but Kirti went to Cheryl's house. Tomorrow, heading there again, since we can't go to HoiLuen's house ): Was looking forward, but postponed, due to some personal matters! xD Hahaha, i won't say it here. Kekeke. Hopefully tomorrow's going to be a blast! I want to go HoiLuen's houseeee! Desperate, laughs. Finally, something damn awesome happened at 6.11p.m. today :D Not stating what it is, but i guess it'll be pretty obvious. 141010; 6.11pm, I love you. Awesomeness ttvm mancxz. Hahaha. Will blog more tomorrow, take pictures for sure. :D Love you all readers, and you! :D

For her:

Hey hey hey! Thanks for giving me a chance alright! Nothing can express how happy i am feeling right now :D I shadn't say too much or else it would get pretty obvious, which i think it is :D Anyways, I LOVE YOU!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Go on my knees.

Do i have to beg you?

Although exams are 'over', fun doesn't seem like it's coming :/ Well planned outing turned out to be a disaster. People not wanting to go, sigh. I don't know laa. Looking forward to tomorrow, but nothing seems to be coming out of it. I hope we can go out.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I'm bound to fail.

To my dearest shitbag math,

Why did you have to be so difficult? Why did you have to make my black hair become white? Thanks to you, i had to wreck my brains. You're mean, no wonder many people hates you. Disgusting piece of subject! :p I am definitely not taking POA, i promise. But, i wouldn't want to take Science. You see laa -.- You suck ttvm, i hate the hell out of you.

Is it normal to be jealous?

I really don't know. I don't want to say it out, but i'm really jealous. I don't know mancxz. I really want to win your heart. ): I hope what i've done for you paid off. I really love you, and i hope you will believe me. I love how much i love you.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Because it's in my mind.

Kekeke. Had a fun day w Kirti, Cheryl, Vanessa & Weijing. Library-ed, Mac-ed, Icecream-ed. Damn fun mancxz :D For the past two days in a row, we ate two ice cream cone EACH, in a row. Damn Awesome laa. Kekeke. Didn't study at all, only slacked. Awesome ttvm. Hahaha, i wish i can turn back the clock. Laughs~ If only she was there, more fun ^^ Lazy elaborate, byeeee.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

I don't like you.

I assure you, i hate the hell out of you.

Waa asshole. I'm damn pissed off now alright. -.- I hate History, sucks ttvm. I don't want to learn History, it's a total waste of time to me. The damn History paper was so damn tough. At first, it wasn't. Laughs, but when Ms Ho saw it, she said it was too easy. Knn, so easy, you go do laa. You get full marks i be like those China people in the past, kneel in front of you. -.- Yeah, in the end, it ended up this difficult. Thanks a lot. I'm going to fail it for sure, unless a miracle happens. Ms Ho is awesome, but not for this case. I'm super upset right now alright. Well, i can't blame her for this, i should have studied hard in the first place anyway. Never mind, don't dwell on it anymore. Focus on my other papers and study hard for it. Geograhy, Maths, Literature, Science, Home econs and Art left. I'm scared for Geography and Science. I'm staying up tonight, study like some mad dog for my Geography. I can't bear to fail it anymore. I failed CA1, CA2, SA1. I'm dead. I've got to score an A1 for Geography tomorrow. Wish me luck. I love you, my snorty.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

A wish upon a star.

Ipad! :D You're already mine, in December. ^^

Canon Camera, i must have you.

Iphone 4! Christmas faster come please~ :D

MacBook, i hope and pray you're mine :D

Come to realize, i'm getting many things for Christmas. It's all listed up there, but maybe not MacBook. I need a laptop badly. Kekeke, Iphone 4 and Ipad is already in my hands, but only in December. Canon Camera, i need you badly ): I think i can get it, but i need to do well for EOY. Hmm, past papers are soso, hopefully the standards of other paper would be as difficult or maybe easier. Hope and pray :D I love Apple products. HEEHEE. My life ain't that fcuked up, i guess? Kekeke. I love you k. Byeee~

The Yellow Strawheart.

I love you, and the yellow strawheart you gave me. I was on cloud nine. I'm so happy. I love you, and forever will.

Monday, October 4, 2010

I hope History wouldn't repeat itself.

What if it happens again? ):

I am scared. I am shaking in fear. I am in an emo mood. I don't know why, but i'm afraid of losing. What can overcome this fear? I don't want history to repeat itself. I don't want things to go the way like it used to. What if it does? What if i get rejected? How? I don't know. I don't want to face that sort of reality once again. I'm afraid. I really like you, and i hope you believe me. The first 5 strawhearts i made, were all given to you. I hope you like it, although it's very screwed. I don't want to lose. Most importantly, i don't want to lose you. If things happen this way once again, i'm better off dead. I don't know but, i'm having temptations to cut myself right now, but i know i shouldn't. Forget it, it's predestined. My life is fated to be f***ed. -.- Life sucks anyway. Yeah, i've got to face the facts, i have a miserable life.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

You and I should be together as one.

It isn't cookies that i love, but it's you. You're cookies :D

HEEHEE. Hello :D I am so in love now laa. Not that i am attached but, it feels like it :D Good enough, good enough. Hopefully we can take this relationship one step further? Would you give me a chance? I hope you will. I love you. Muacks~

Saturday, October 2, 2010

I love how much i love you,

I love you! :D I want to win your heart, love you like never before. You make me smile, you make my heart smile. I want to be with you, and that's that. You're damn awesome, you're so pretty. :D I love you a million, i'll prove it to you. Muacks~

Friday, October 1, 2010

It's over already.

It's a gone case, for Nelson & I.

That's the word to describe us. Nelson, Jiahui, Weisong, Hoi Luen, Wanqi, Ian & myself.

Hello. :) Today's an awesome day. Well, maybe except for the Chinese paper 2. ): I think i'm going to score like 45-50/70? Sigh, i don't know. I just hope i'm able to still get an A1 for Chinese. After exam, headed to Hoi Luen's house to do "Project", in a way, HEEHEE ^^ Yeah. Her house is super classy ttvm. It's so high tech laa. Many things are black, maybe except for her room. Purple, PINK! Laughs~ Slacked for i guess a few hours, 2-3 perhaps? Yeah, and the project merely took only 20 minutes. Something bad happened though. While we were slacking at the swimming pool, Jiahui pushed Nelson down into the swimming pool. They both didn't realize that Nelson's phone was in his pocket. Nelson, he thought there was nothing inside his pockets, hence he jumped into the pool once again. To realize, when he got up, his phone was inside. He got a hell shock. His phone died. Water was literally dripping out from the phone once we shook it. Blowed dry it, no avail. We blew dry it for nearly an hour. Still to no avail. Gave up, Explosive Cookies, Hoi Luen, lent him a spare phone for a week. I think it's a gone case, hopefully not. ): Same case for me. However, i guess my case is batter? Because mine is still able to operate, it's just that the light's dim and there's no more vibration. Anyway, let's not talk about this further. Jiahui, don't blame yourself anymore alright? You didn't had the intention to do it, it was an accident. Anyway, we slacked a lot. And, i realized, we were open to each other. Yes, in a sick way, laughs~. But why not? We are best of friends :D But not physically, so don't go so far. Just like, the way we talk. After exams, we are definitely going there again, and we are going to SWIM :D The swiming pool is so damn nice alright ^^. And coincidentally, my dad's friend stays there too. I've been there. The swimming pool is small, but it's definitely fun to be in :D Jiahui emo-ed for a moment, and Weisong was there to cheer her up! SO SWEET :D He's more daring already wor :) The presents he gave were totally awesome. Laughs, did with him while Jiahui was in Higher Mother Tongue. Couldn't reach Nabilah, so we did the project on our own, completed~ YAY (Y) Hmm, i love today. I want to rewind time, and cancel out the exams part. OH OH BY THE WAY, I LOVE TO GO TO THE TOILET DURING EXAMS BECAUSE THE TEACHERS HAVE TO FOLLOW ME THERE, WHICH MAKES ME FEEL SO IMPORTANT! HEHEHE.